11:02 p.m. - 2009-09-15
brutal truth is...
i....
really miss you.
i care about you so much it hurts. i think about you way more than i really should. my heart aches when it realizes that you are a dream that i can't have.
do you know how you make me feel? do you know the happiness you bring me? do you understand the contentment i feel when i am with you? do you realize that i feel so natural, happy, free, when i am with you?
i wish i could tell you how i feel; sadly, i am not able to do that. for fear that what we have will be ruined, i have to play it safe.
i need you in my life.
it's been so long since i last felt this way. falling, falling, falling.
you stabilize me. your calm persona is what anchors me.
i wish you'd see that. i wish you'd come to realize how good we actually are together.
